Fall fling, growing, and kisses.

So we went to the fall fling in Wise, VA on Saturday. I really think the kids had a blast! I know I did. There was a ton to do and see. Emily made some sand art and a tie-dye shirt. We made sure to make a monkey sand art thing for Zoe too. We also all got to ride on top of a fire truck around town. It was a blast and so cool to see the town from that high up and the breeze felt great because it was in the mid 80's and very sunny! We got some great lemonade, but not nearly as good as Josh's. And I also got my favorite kettle corn straight out of the kettle. It was so good to eat it nice and warm still, it just melted in your mouth.

Zoe is growing like a weed. I weighed myself and then weighed myself holding her and she weighs 10 and half pounds. And I am guessing around 22-23 inches long. She was 7 lbs at her 2 weeks appt so if she continues to grow at this rate then by her 2 month appt on the 22nd she should be around 11 lbs! That is 4 lbs in a month and a half! I think I need to stop spiking my milk with all that miracle grow. lol I can't wait to see how big she actually is. I am also kind of interested to see Emily's reaction to Zoe getting shots. She is so loving and protective I wonder if she will get mad at the nurses or just try to comfort Zoe.

And I finally got a jar to be able to put all of the Hershey kisses in for Emily to understand how long Josh is going to be gone and I think she is getting it. She can now physically see how long it is going to be, and I really think it is helping. She still misses him a lot and says it quite a few times a day but I think she can now get the fact that he will be home and she can kind of see when. I also think she likes the fact that she knows that every day she knows she is going to get some chocolate. ;) I did it for when he is going to come home for R&R for a couple of reasons. 1. I am pretty sure that the chocolate on the bottom would be not so yummy after a year.  lol 2. I think it might be some what confusing to say "here is 300 and some odd pieces of candy for when he comes home", but then have him come home in the middle. Make is seem a little easier on her. And I didn't realize how little space that amount of candy would take up. It really wasn't all that much. I had thought that I would need a huge jar, but really I used just a medium size one. And 183 pieces of candy really don't look like that many. It kinda makes me feel better about when he will be home too. I am also going to order two Daddy Dolls (thank you Megan for the suggestion!) for Emily and Zoe. I think that this will help Emily as well because she can carry him around and show him all sorts of things. I can see her playing with that doll all the time.

The exercises are going well. I am not feeling so out of shape and it has only been 4 days. But I have actually gained 3 lbs since I started lol. But then again I weighed my self in the morning that first time and at night today. I am hoping that is what made the big difference. I had also just finished dinner. And I was wearing jeans and a sweat shirt. I am trying to find all sorts of reasons as to why I have gained. I will weigh again in the morning in the same clothes as previous and hopefully it will be nicer to me. ;)

And now I am off to bed. I am hoping Zoe will be nice to me and give me some good sleep tonight.

P.S. I love you babe! I hope everything went good today. Be safe and remember that the girls and I will love you forever! xoxoxoxoxoxo

AHHHHH muscles!!

I have realized how horribly out of shape I am... I have muscles on my body that hurt that I didn't even know I had or used. But all I can think of is the final product. And hoping that I will look freaking awesome when Josh comes home for R&R!

I had an awesome 3 hour phone date with a great friend that I haven't talked to in a long time last night. It was so nice. The conversation was so great I didn't even realize that it had been 3 hours. It was nice especially for someone who doesn't really like talking on the phone. Thank Ryan!

Week 2 of dance class was yesterday and she loved it. As soon as the door opened she ran in and sat down right in her spot. She knew what was going on and wanted to start it as soon as she could. She told me she loves dance class and asked if she could go to class today. I told her only on fridays and she was thoroughly upset. I love her and her passions.

Well I think that is it for now. I am running behind and need to get going so I can kick my butt again. We are just doing cardio today and pilates every other day because I am so sore I know I wouldn't be able to do it. I will do another post tonight that is a little more insightful and not so shallow. lol

p.s. I love you babe! be safe and remember the girls and I will love you forever!

The infamous baby pooch and missing dad

I am so starting my exercise video tomorrow. My SIL and I are going to start it and do it every morning and hopefully get this baby flab gone by the time Josh comes home. I tried to show my almost 6 year old niece how to do a push up and I couldn't do more than 1!! That is sadness right there. I showed her the plank position and I could feel my entire body quivering including my abs. I am so out of shape it is not funny! I have a Biggest Loser 30 day exercise video and some pilates that I am going to do. I plan on having a rocking hard sexy bod by the time Josh comes home for R&R. ;) I guess I should also cut down on the cookies too. lol

I went out yard saleing (I know not a word but I can't think of any other word that describes it) today and I got some AWESOME deals. I pretty much got my entire shirt wardrobe back. Every year or so I go through my clothes and get rid of about 75% of them because they no longer appeal to my tastes at that time so they go into a yard sale and I replace with stuff from yard sales. So now I have a whole new shirt wardrobe and I am so happy! I got it all for about 15 bucks it was great. Now I have to go through my old shirts and then my SIL gets to go through them and get some new shirts for her wardrobe. :)

Emily is really having a hard time with daddy being gone. She keeps saying that he isn't going to come home. I have to keep saying that yes he is coming back and he loves her and misses her. She knows that he loves her and misses her but I really don't know if she actually understands that he is coming back. It is kinda sad and I wish I could do something to help her understand. Anybody have any ideas? I have my Yahoo messenger set up again and I am hoping that we get to do a video chat with Josh, maybe that will help Emily not miss him so much.

Okay I am off to go through some clothes and look at all my goodies! Day 5 down only 187 (or so) to go.

p.s. I love you babe! I hope you have a good day and I will talk to you soon. Be safe and remember that the girls and I will always love you.

I feel so acomplished!

The dishes were done today!! Now, I did only about half of them and then my MIL (the wonderful person that she is) was soooo nice and did the rest and helped me with the girls and help me clean up a bit. I didn't realize how bad I needed the help. But now it is to the point where I can keep up with it and it should be okay now.

My microwave broke today. I was warming up some lunch for Emily and when I went to go get it out it was broke... I have no idea what the hell happened to it but it wont turn on at all anymore. I tried a different outlet and still nothing. So now I have to go buy one. Which is no big deal but still in two days I have had to buy some sort of appliance. Yesterday a vacuum, tomorrow a microwave. It sounds like some motto for Sears or something, lol.

I was able to chat with Josh a little today which was so nice to hear he was safe and sound. I hate that he is there but then again I am happy he got there safe. These past days have gone by fairly fast so I think it is a good sign that this year will go by so fast. I am hoping.

Tomorrow there is a huge community wide yard sale in a town near by. I am going to head that way and see if I can't just find some wonderful great deal! maybe I will find my own Jackson Pollock and become a millionaire. Ahhh one can only hope huh? ;)

I love you babe! I am glad you got there safe and we have 3 days down now. Be safe and remember that the girls and I love you and will forever! Emily has painted some beautiful pictures for you already. Love you!

p.s. (see the title of this blog is so appropriate isn't it. such random thoughts going on in my head.)

Dishes, dishes and MORE dishes!

I can't seem to start or finish these dishes... I don't know why. They sit there and they stare at me, screaming at me to be cleaned! and yet here I sit writing.

Both girls went to bed before 9 and I am going to waste the time I could be getting sleep cleaning the kitchen and doing those damn dishes.

I got some more plants for the house today at Wally world. I think I am going to try to make it a jungle! lol. Emily actually asked to go see them, I think she likes them just as much as I do.

okay so that didn't work out quite like I had planned. as I typed that last sentence Zoe woke up and is just now back to sleep. so I am going to go to bed with her because I fell asleep nursing her. I am just going to get up early and do the dishes before they are both awake so I can get them done and not have the interruptions or feel guilty for taking time away from them. but I think that is all for now. I don't have much else to say because my brain is fried. this is about a week now without a nap and it is getting to me.

Love you babe! The girls say hi and that they love you and miss you. Be safe and hope to hear from you soon. Mwah!

Day 2 down

Today was a rough day. The reality of Josh being that far away hit me hard and Zoe decided to hardly sleep at all all day and wanted to eat every 1-2 hours. I think she is going through a growth spurt, but that makes getting anything done extremely hard. I think this whole daddy being gone thing has hit Emily today as well. She kept mentioning him and saying she wanted him to come home and that she missed him. She isn't quite old enough to understand how long he is going to be gone. I think that is why I need to really get this deployment kisses jar done. I think it will help her understand how long he is going to be gone for.

But both girls are now down for the night and I am staring at a whole counter full of dishes. I hate doing dishes with a passion!! I don't have a dishwasher where I am living and it is killing me! Come the begining of November I am going to go buy a countertop portable dishwasher because I really, really, REALLY don't want to wash dishes by hand for a year. I am thinking maybe I should stay up and do them so that I don't have to do them tomorrow and take time away from my girls. I know it is going to take me a while to do them. I think that is one reason I hate doing them so much is it takes so much time. I would have to stand by the sink forever and I couldn't spend it playing with Emily and Zoe.

Speaking of playing, Emily and I played Candy Land today. She was tired so she wasn't as focused as she usually is but she loved it. She kept saying that daddy was the blue one and that we had to save that one for him. And then we played princess dominoes and she is actually really good at it. ;) Played with Zoe during tummy time while Emily made us some soup in her princess outfit. It now has become soup that she makes because we watched The Princess and the Frog today. And she loved it of course! She is a princess fanatic!

How does David Blaine do all his magic!?!? I am watching it while writing this and he just did a trick to the camera for the "home audience" and I picked a card and he got it right!! How can he do that if this was taped??? He amazes me!

Okay I am going to do some dishes until the hot water runs out because I know it will before I am done. Hope everyone else had a great day!


Does anyone have any ideas on how to let Emily in on how long and far away daddy is? Or do you think I should just leave it at that he is at work?


P.S. I love you babe! Glad you got there safe and I hope that you got some rest and I will talk to you soon. <3 Emily says she loves you too.

And the waiting begins....

First let me start by saying that I am new to this whole blogging thing. I am going to try as hard as I can to do a post a day for the year that Josh is gone. These blogs will probably all be just random thoughts as my brain does it's own thing. :) So now onto this thing I call a blog....

Josh left today. He is on his way to a year long deployment. I know that I will see him for R & R but it still sucks. I thought that I had grieved him leaving already when I left him at the airport for him to go back to NY but apparently not. I talked to him about an hour before his plane took off and started to cry all over again. It's different knowing that your husband is going to a different state than it is knowing that he is going 7000 miles away. I don't like that feeling at all. And so the waiting begins until I get to see him again. I know it is going to be hard on Emily. She has already said that she is worried about him and that she misses him. I don't think she understands that he is going to be gone for a year. She just know that he is at work. I hate this....

But in other news Emily has begun her dance classes. She loves it and she is such a cute little dancer. Zoe is starting to be a good sleeper and is sleeping about 6-7 hours a night now. I am hoping she continues this trend and starts going 8-9 hours soon.

This year is going to be a year of contradictions. I want it to go as fast as possible so that Josh comes home to me and the girls as soon as possible, but on the other hand I don't want Zoe to grow up too fast. I want to treasure her being small and precious. I guess I will have to try to do both.

I think that is all for my first post. I am now going to try to make my page all nice and pretty. :)

Be safe and come home soon babe. I love you! :) <3