And the waiting begins....

First let me start by saying that I am new to this whole blogging thing. I am going to try as hard as I can to do a post a day for the year that Josh is gone. These blogs will probably all be just random thoughts as my brain does it's own thing. :) So now onto this thing I call a blog....

Josh left today. He is on his way to a year long deployment. I know that I will see him for R & R but it still sucks. I thought that I had grieved him leaving already when I left him at the airport for him to go back to NY but apparently not. I talked to him about an hour before his plane took off and started to cry all over again. It's different knowing that your husband is going to a different state than it is knowing that he is going 7000 miles away. I don't like that feeling at all. And so the waiting begins until I get to see him again. I know it is going to be hard on Emily. She has already said that she is worried about him and that she misses him. I don't think she understands that he is going to be gone for a year. She just know that he is at work. I hate this....

But in other news Emily has begun her dance classes. She loves it and she is such a cute little dancer. Zoe is starting to be a good sleeper and is sleeping about 6-7 hours a night now. I am hoping she continues this trend and starts going 8-9 hours soon.

This year is going to be a year of contradictions. I want it to go as fast as possible so that Josh comes home to me and the girls as soon as possible, but on the other hand I don't want Zoe to grow up too fast. I want to treasure her being small and precious. I guess I will have to try to do both.

I think that is all for my first post. I am now going to try to make my page all nice and pretty. :)

Be safe and come home soon babe. I love you! :) <3